How time does fly! It has been almost three years since I requested release from my Quaker meeting and began a period of searching. It as been almost three years since I felt led to share my journey.
For as long as I can remember my goal has been to find Unity with Spirit. As a child and young woman I lived that out as a member of the Anglican Communion, serving as lay reader/minister, Acolyte and Acolyte Mistress, Nun in the Order of St. Helena, Candidate for the Priesthood, Mentor/Facilitator in the Education for Ministry program until the Churches teachings and my inner leadings came into conflict to such a degree that I needed to find another way. That way was the Religious Society of Friends (Quakers). For twenty plus years I followed a similar path, deeply immersing myself in the work, studying, searching, serving as Elder, Peace Concerns Coordinator, Meeting and Regional Clerk, AVP facilitator both in the U.S. and the Republic of Georgia, until I could no longer bear the heartache.
For three years now, I have wandered in the spiritual wilderness. I attend Friends meeting from time to time and am grateful to retain that thread. I am grateful to be welcomed to Ceremony beside the First Peoples of this land and for their willingness to teach this Caucasian woman. I feel the cleansing power of Inipi Ceremony (sweat lodge), of Sundance, and I pray that I may soon have the strength and understanding to be put on the hill for Vision Quest.
These practices help me to focus yet I still yearn for a Spiritual community. A place to share the path with others and to test faithfulness with like-minded travelers. "Who will walk with me?" I ask. The answer comes "I am always with you." A smile comes for I know the truth of this. It is so easy to loose sight of this Presence.
I struggle to put in place the cycle of prayer and reading and meditation that I know will help me to remain centered. I search for work that feeds my soul; my inner peace, in the hope that I will then reflect Peace back to the world. That remains my leading. I ask that you hold my hand, as I hold each of yours as we continue our journeys.